i just traded one pain for another. fuck all of this. i'm always in fucking pain. if it isn't my goddam head or my stomach, it's something. i hate everyone for it. and fuck dr. McAsshole. I hate that fucker. he should give me some goddam fuckin vicodin so i can live. i can't stop being so goddam self destructive. i might go blind. i'm a fat pig who's out of control and im burning myself alive. FUCK YOU b. i'm ripping open at the seams.